Sunday, February 3, 2013
I came here to unwind. To quiet. To think. To plan. To dream. To let myself be. To see where I might go. To see where I have been.
It's been exciting and tumultuous to re-enter this town.
Old friends abound. I'm filled up with love and energy and strength and intellect and activities.
I feel full and alive and real.
I wonder which way I should go.
I try to calm down. And sit back and think logically.
I am logical. But emotions can take over. Swinging like a pendulum. Which way is up? Which way is forward?
In a frenzy, I quiet myself. Locking myself to a table. Writing in my journal. Forcing myself to stop. To slow. To write. To process.
I must not jump from lily pad to lily pad in this pond of life.
I must slow down and make conscious decisions.
Which way to go?
[Link to Portland photos here.]