not spotless

i cleaned and cleaned and cleaned.
i did what i was told.
vacuumed all the floors- the bathroom-
under the couch-
dustbunnies
hiding everywhere.
the kitchen, a mess from their dinner
and mine-
wiping and washing and drying.
yesterday, the yard-
mowing and pruning and picking weeds.
three loads of laundry
hung out to dry and folded.
carefully cleaning
the toilet, the bathroom
thinking
none of this matters-
the house all clean
does not make up for the disorder
inside.